Confronting the Unread; Reconfronting the Read

I find myself thinking of being in a library.

In the Buddhist worldview, the entire conditioned reality in which we live is called samsara: the world of birth and death, arising and passing. This is our life. One of the amazing attributes of samsara is that no matter what we have or what is available to us, we know that somewhere out there, there is always more. The potential for dissatisfaction is infinite, because in this world of change, there is no end to arising and passing away, and the possibilities for comparing and wanting are endless.

Sharon Salzberg. Lovingkindness.
Countless books and countless roadways to reading and re-reading.

And so for day 2049
29.07.2012

Typology and Function

Proposed typology of gay literature

- community building
- coming out
- passing
- closetry
With intersectionality with AIDS writing.

Inspired by application of action research

And so for day 2048
28.07.2012

Lost Locus

Could serve as an epigraphy to a set of psychogeographic instructions.

The Drop, that wrestles in the Sea —
Forgets her own locality —
Opening lines to No. 284 in The Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson edited by Thomas H. Johnson.

And so for day 2047
21.07.2012

Segmenting

Towards the end of a poem in three mandala sections ("Tiger") there is this arresting bit of typographical ingenuity.

attempting
A few strokes and the "attempting" becomes "tempting". There are many lines to treat the cascade of words. One is the periphery of the circle: "edge / where / someone is / always / cutting loose". Another is to preserve the horizontal line by line progression while ignoring white space between the words: "someone is attempting the / always nemesis / cutting loose." The very action of striking out letters is a sort of cutting loose. And so the poem folds upon itself. Tempting attempt at reading the locus — "at". A displacement.

Michele Leggott. Swimmers, Dancers (1991).

And so for day 2046
20.07.2012

Raise a Glass

From the obituary for poet and novelist Peter Trower in the Globe and Mail

A memorial and celebration is scheduled to be held Saturday at 3 p.m. at his old Vancouver hangout, now known as the Railway Stage and Beer Café. It will not be teetotal.
Need we say that Mr. Trower enjoyed his beer?

And so for day 2045
19.07.2012

Craft in the Tool

Christine McFadden. The Essential Kitchen.

It's a book about tools. In which we learn more about their design and purpose. For instance, the rough texture underneath ramekins:

Porcelain ramekins These smooth, straight-sided ramekins are used for individual soufflés, as well as baked custards or crème brulées. Egg-based dishes such as these are cooked in a roasting pan filled with enough hot water to come halfway up the sides of the ramekins. The ramekins have a slightly roughened base to prevent a vacuum from forming and making it hard to lift them from the water bath.
And this about the design of the tagine:
Tagine A tagine is a uniquely shaped, thick earthenware pot, used in North Africa for the slow-cooked dish of the same name. The pot is traditionally used on an open fire. Very little is needed as the conical lid provides a large cool surface on which steam condenses and then drips onto the food below. The tall shape also keeps the lid cool at the top, so it can be lifted without a protective cloth.
One is set to develop via McFadden an appreciation for good design.

And so for day 2044
18.07.2012

Metaphors of Method

This is a description of cooking technique but it in its regard for the appropriate procedures and outcomes can serve as analogy to writing.

Crisp and Golden vs. Soft and Moist

Do you want ingredients — such as onions or potatoes — sautéed to a golden brown? Or do you want them soft and moist? Here are tips to remember:

1. For crisp, golden coloring, heat the fat first, then add the ingredients, but do not salt. Salt impedes browning.

2. For soft, moist cooking, heat the fat, ingredients, and salt together.
Perfect description of some writing assignments.

Simply French: Patricia Wells presents the cuisine of Joël Robuchon.

And so for day 2043
17.07.2012

Like How

Wrote to my sister and my niece about a culinary accomplishment (from a family friend from St. Pierre et Miquelon, Mme Amandine Lalande, who gave the recipe to my mother who made pâté maison at Christmas time and passed on the recipe and instructions to us)

At long last I attempted my first pâté maison. Attached is a picture of the creation and a scan of the index card with the recipe in Mom's handwriting.

I no longer have a meat grinder and had to finely dice the ham by hand. A nice meditative action.

Lesson for next time : don't under salt - it affects the taste.

As you can imagine a pound of veal, a pound of pork and a half a pound of ham makes a big loaf. We froze half.
My evidence and the recipe card I worked from

Elsewhere in a post called 1846 I muse about an other piece of handwritten ephemera from my mother and note "Never undervalue the impact of the hand written note." or in this day and age a personal message that reminds oneself and others not to forget to salt adequately.

And so for day 2042
16.07.2012

How Like

A bundle and its medicines resembles a smartphone and its collection of apps.

The comparison points to revitalization of Indigenous cultures.

The bundle's homecoming and first ceremonial opening since 1942 is being witnessed by 200 people, Blackfoot from Alberta and Montana (who call themselves Blackfeet) and a significant minority of non-natives like myself.

Some have come for physical healing. Others have come for the healing of the soul.

"These are holy bundles given to us by the Creator to hold our people together," explains tribe member Patricia Deveraux, as she waits outside the teepee, craning her neck to see what is going on inside.

"They're the same as the relics from the Catholic Church," continues the pleasant, round-faced woman of 36, whose faith straddles Catholicism and Blackfoot spirituality with equal vigour. "They are a demonstration of the holy spirit. They can heal people."

Reprinted from the Edmonton Journal 2002 by Larry Johnsrude (https://www.aaanativearts.com/2002-native-american-news/natives-celebrate-return-of-sacred-bundle-spirits-back-home.html)
The comparison also points to the indigenization of the culture-at-large.

That smartphone connects people through a sort of spirit world. Remember William Gibson's Count Zero? The loa in cyberspace? Creolization is the old indigenization.

But they are not quite the same in a linguistic context:
The contact between languages in multilingual contexts can lead to language change and the formation of new varieties of language. The term indigenization is used to refer to the contact-induced linguistic changes that result in a new dialect, while creolization refers to the emergence of a new language. […] According to Mesthrie and Bhatt (2008 : 11), indigenization ‘refers to the acculturation of the [transplanted language] to localized phenomena, be they cultural, topographic or even linguistic (in terms of local grammatical, lexical and discourse norms).’ In other words, its use in a new environment brings about changes in the transplanted language. Unlike other kinds of linguistic change, however, these changes reflect the influence of the local languages and culture. They also reflect widespread second-language learning of the transplanted language by the local population.

Jeff Siegel. "Multilingualism, Indigenization, and Creolization" in The Handbook of Bilingualism and Multilingualism: Second Edition edited by Tej K. Bhatia and William C. Ritchie.
"Linguistic indigenization occurs when a language is transplanted in a new location and learned and used by the local population." By analogy thinking of spiritual items such as medicine bundles in terms of digital technologies such as smartphones would be a form of acculturation covered by the notion of indigenization. Both have an element of ritual and appropriate use attached to them. Spirituality meets materiality. Holding people together.

And so for day 2041
15.07.2012

Dialogue as Exclusion of the Third via Noise Introduction

Serres Hermes I

See Serres, Hermes 66-67: [doCtored with typographiC noise]

Following scientific tradition, let us Call noise the set of these phenomena of interferenCe that become obstaCles to CommuniCation. Thus, CaCography is the noise of graphiC form or, rather, the latter Comprises an essential form and a noise that is either essential or oCCasional. To write badly is to plunge the graphiC message into this noise which interferes with reading, which transforms the reader into an epigraphist. In other words, simply to write is to risk jumbling a form. In the same way, to CommuniCate orally is to risk losing meaning in noise. . . .[C]ommuniCation is a sort of game played by two interloCutors Considered as united against the phenomena of interferenCe and Confusion, or against individuals with some stake in interrupting [67] CommuniCation. These interloCutors . . . battle together against noise. The CaCographer and the epigraphist, the CaCophonous speaker and the auditor, exChange their reCiprocal roles in dialogue, where the sourCe becomes reCeption, and the reCeption sourCe (aCCording to a given rhythm). . . . To hold a dialogue is to suppose a third man and to seek to exClude him; a suCCessful CommuniCation is the exClusion of the third man. The most profound dialeCtical problem is not the problem of the Other, who is only a variety — or a variation — of the Same, it is the problem of the third man. We might Call this third man the demon, the prosopopoeia of noise.
Okay

And so for day 2040
14.07.2012

Sound Twins

Robin Blaser sounds like Carl Sandburg.

Listen to any of the recordings of Blaser at PennSound.

Compare to Carl Sandburg reading from The Windy City [Chicago] from the Caedmon Poetry Collection: A Century of Poets Reading Their Work.

Chi-ca-go

And so for day 2039
13.07.2012

The Song Still With You

Dane Swan in A Mingus Lullaby displays a piercing humanity.

gess dey scuuured. Cawl de men in da white suites,/tayk me to da pinkhouse on de hill, da funny fawm,/giv' me a room wit pillows on da wallz, takeway/mi turntable, hav da priest pray ova me, tell mi repent!/I do no such ting! 'least ma mine iz free. 'least deez songs/still wit me.
This is the concluding stanza to "Lullaby" which narrates the tale of a music lover that skips church on Sundays and comes to this unhappy end. Swan captures voice well. And not always to achieve pathos.
If it wasn't for decorum
(and laws) my Hell-o'-Weens
would be a play on irony.
Assaulting Black-faced White people,
While wearing Blackface,
screaming, "Black on Black crime!"

Or eschew irony, wear a white hood
and call them nigger right before I attack.
Watch the glint of innocence
in their eyes fade —
reliving my acts of tyranny on tear-filled pillows

I know I am, but what are you?
This from "Fear — a work in two voices".

And so for day 2038
12.07.2012

Just Staring Just Writing

Ephemera from the Royal Alexandra show opens up to a reprinted interview and old chestnut.

From the programme to Lily Tomlin in The Search for Signs of Intelligent Life in the Universe written by Jane Wagner, this bit on the nature of writing work…
I know I lack discipline. But I also think that being at the typewriter is not absolutely the most important thing about writing. I find it hard to get Lily to understand that I'm writing even when I'm just staring out the window.
Excerpt from an interview with Lily and Jane by Stephen Saban appearing in May 1986 issue of Details. Reminds one of the James Thurber self-reported anecdote:
I never quite know when I’m not writing. Sometimes my wife comes up to me at a party and says, ‘Dammit, Thurber, stop writing.’ She usually catches me in the middle of a paragraph. Or my daughter will look up from the dinner table and ask, ‘Is he sick?’ ‘No,’ my wife says, ‘he’s writing something.’
James Thurber, The Art of Fiction No. 10 interviewed by George Plimpton & Max Steele, Fall 1955.

And so for day 2037
11.07.2012

Of Taste and Origins

Originally appearing in the journal Petits Propos Culinaires

The name of the confection in its various forms — French massepain, Italian marzapana, Spanish mazapana — has been a puzzle. "Pain" or "pana," it is thought, means bread. But what about "maza" or "masse"? I would suggest that it arose from the experience of the Franks and other Westerners in Outremer. They encountered Saracen food and also Saracen alchemy, and may have been aware of the echoes of he alchemical elixir of life in the dietary of the Arabs. The Saracen name for the art was alkhimia. But the Franks called it by a Greek word, maza (Latinised as massa), which had earlier been a term for the bronze used in some of the experiments. For the Franks, the delicious golden pastes of sugar, ground almonds and saffron may well have seemed magical creations, brought into being by the alchemy of the Saracen cooks, and thus earning the name of maza pana — alchemical bread.
C. Anne Wilson. "The Saracen Connection: Arab Cuisine and the Mediaeval West" reprinted in The Wilder Shores of Gastronomy: 20 Years of the Best Food Writing from the Journal Petits Propos Culinaires.

And so for day 2036
10.07.2012

A Particular and Peculiar Pair

Neil Hennessy has produced a gif(t) set worthy of displaying on the same page.

Puddle

Paddle

They have popped up in a number of places (in the past in the Coach House Books archive) persisting at deluxe rubber chicken #2 from 1999. Preserved by the kind folks at the Electronic Poetry Center at the State University of New York at Buffalo.

And so for day 2036
10.07.2012

Distracting Disorders

Phoebe Wang has a hilarious piece in BookThug's The Unpublished City curated by Dionne Brand.

It's the tale of an invigilator and the student conditions requiring special accommodation: ASUD - Attention Surplus Underactivity Disorder; the student with a light-sensitive condition who only took classes in winter months; and the Syntactical Dyslexic.

A hint of envy creeps in and quickly creeps out.
Lily almost envied their specialness, their impairments, disorders and fixations that exempted them from the ordinary masses. If she'd had the choice, which of — but this was no way to think. If she wanted to emerge from today with all her faculties intact.
Through the humour shines the evident delight in diversity.

And so for day 2035
09.07.2012

Impact of the Cumulative

It may be difficult for the colour-blind to spot the red…

What jumps out is the message that hate does not need much to grow.

The goal of IWitness is to motivate students, through the use of testimonies from the USC Shoah Foundation’s Visual History Archive to act responsibly and ultimately to help them uphold important values. These include justice, equality, diversity, tolerance and how best to counter attitudes and acts of hatred. And we’ve seen through our evaluation efforts that the power of first person audiovisual resources does have tremendous impact on students. In this current political climate, it’s so important to remember that hate, unlike other feelings or dispositions, does not need much to grow; something that we are learning too well in every locale we are working.

Ignorance, fear and opportunity provide marvelous conditions for it to take root and spread. In the 30s in Germany, the Communists and the Socialists were so busy fighting each other that they missed the real threat that the rise of the Nazis posed. One might suggest that a similar dynamic is taking shape as our political leaders vie for power, oblivious to—or even exploitive of—the growing resentment between groups of people on the ground. In both cases, the result was and is a proliferation of fear, hate and a loss of democracy and decency. We are in danger of falling into the same trap when we set up a dynamic of “us” and “them.”

Interview with Kori Street
Vigilance: the action or state of keeping careful watch for possible danger or difficulties.
Cumulative: increasing or increased in quantity, degree, or force by successive additions.

And so for day 2034
08.07.2012

Floating Signifier: Die Zauberflöte

Mozart's Magic Flute has spawned many a gorgeous visual treatment in materials advertising the opera. Perhaps none so elaborate as this emblem-endowed figure.

Opera Atelier, 1991.

My copy of this ephemera was used as years as a book marker witnessed by the crinkling at the base.

And so for day 2033
07.07.2012

Word, World, Flesh

Stephanie K. Dunning in the acknowledgements to Queer in Black and White: Interraciality, Same Sex Desire, and Contemporary African American Culture signals the contributions of a care giver — a type of acknowledgement that one rarely sees.

In addition to my friends and colleagues, I'd like to acknowledge a few people who played a more indirect role in the publication of this book. I must give credit to Crystal Haymes, a positively amazing child-care provider, who came into our lives and transformed everything for the better. Without her cheerful, reliable, and excellent child care, I would not have been able to complete this project.
I want to be slightly naughty and tie this acknowledgement to the paean to swearing that is highlighted in her epilogue "Reading Robert Reid-Pharr"
From that moment, my love of Robert Reid-Pharr's writing began. How can one not love a writer who can academically deploy the word "fuck"? I am a person who says fuck, cock, pussy, shit, and muthafucka with great regularity. I delight in introducing my students to the powerful rhetorical pleasure of actually saying precisely what several adjectives and a discrete noun mean to one simple word: fuck. (My students, I must say, are not always as delighted.) What the use of such frank language suggested to me was that there was a place for me in academe — a place for me in language — that I had previously thought was unavailable.
And what name do I invoked to tie these passages together? Bakhtin.

I find hilarious, Nicole C. Kear's rules in the Salon article Mommy’s got a potty mouth which reminds us that there are elaborate discursive dimensions even in the employment of the most course language.
I'm sure my perspective will change as they get older, but my children are still mastering basic language skills, and you have to learn the rules before you can bend them. Unlike other parents I know, I have a perfectly traditional perspective here: I don't think it's OK for my kids to swear, not at home, not at third-grade recess, not on special occasions. Until they can scan iambic pentameter or explain dramatic irony, my kids will have to keep their language G-rated.
In her conclusion, Kear appears to be channelling Dunning with profit.
And so, apparently, will I. The only question is, how? Resolutions are made to be broken, cuss jars are no deterrent, and substitutions only remind me of what I’m missing. It would appear I’m going to have to kick this habit with good, old-fashioned willpower, by biting my tongue. Until bedtime, at least. After all, I’m only fucking human.
Merde! always translated as "Break a leg!"

And so for day 2032
06.07.2012

Wry: using or expressing dry, especially mocking, humor

I have always gone through the mental motions of ducking when I finally unscramble the title of Rita Mae Brown's book of poetry: The Hand That Cradles the Rock. Relish the irreverence of "The Great Pussblossom" is lobbed to the reader.

Hoisting her tail to the vertical
Pussblossom plants a kiss of suspicion upon her spouse,
"Tell me, dear, have you been eating mouse?"
Just the appropriate note of outré.

And so for day 2031
05.07.2012

Whence Pederasty?

Adrienne Rich. Compulsory Heterosexuality and Lesbian Existence.

Lesbians have historically been deprived of political existence through "inclusion' as female versions of male homosexuality. To equate lesbian existence with male homosexuality because each is stigmatized is to deny and erase female reality once again. To separate those women stigmatized as "homosexual" or "gay" from the complex continuum of female resistance to enslavement, and attach them to a male pattern, is to falsify our history. Part of the history of lesbian existence is, obviously, to be found where lesbians, lacking a coherent female community, have shared a kind of social life and common cause with homosexual men. But this has to be seen against the differences: women's lack of economic and cultural privilege relative to men; qualitative differences in female and male relationships, for example, the prevalence of anonymous sex and the justification of pederasty among male homosexuals, the pronounced ageism in male homosexual standards of sexual attractiveness, etc. […] the term "gay serves the purpose of blurring the very outlines we need to discern, which are of crucial value for feminism and for the freedom of women as a group.
Signs: Journal of Women in Culture and Society 1980, vol. 5, no. 4 (1980); reprinted by Antelope Publications, in 1982, as a pamphlet; collected in The Signs reader : women, gender, & scholarship (Chicago : University of Chicago Press, 1983)

But in 1986 there is a shift. Mention of "pederasty" is dropped. "Serves" becomes "may serve" and a footnote is added. The revisions are to be found in in her 1986 book Blood, Bread, and Poetry.
Part of the history of lesbian existence is, obviously, to be found where lesbians, lacking a coherent female community, have shared a kind of social life and common cause with homosexual men. But there are differences: women's lack of economic and cultural privilege relative to men; qualitative differences in female and male relationships — for example, and the patterns of anonymous sex among male homosexuals, and the pronounced ageism in male homosexual standards of sexual attractiveness. I perceive the lesbian experience as being, like motherhood, a profoundly female experience […] the term gay may serve the purpose of blurring the very outlines we need to discern, which are of crucial value for feminism and for the freedom of women as a group.*

* [A.R. 1986: The shared historical and spiritual "crossover" functions of lesbians and gay men in cultures past and present are traced by Judy Grahn in Another Mother Tongue: Gay Words, Gay Worlds (Boston: Beacon, 1984). I now think we have much to learn both from the uniquely female aspects of lesbian existence and from the complex "gay" identity we share with gay men.]
When I encountered Rich's "In Memoriam" in Poets for Life: Seventy-six Poets Respond to AIDS (1989) and in a revised form in Time's Power: Poems 1985-1988) where it appears with the initials D.K in its title [David Kalstone?], I thought that the apparent change in the view of gay men related to the AIDS crisis. But now in reviewing the evidence, I see that transhistorical studies such as Grahn's played a part.

From far on the other side: Gerald Hannon ends the article Men loving boys loving men The Body Politic, Issue 39, December 1977/January 1978 with an appeal to consider the Anita Bryants of the world as the real child molesters.
"Save Our Children, Inc" is the name of the game, although the organizers seem to be cynically aware of just what that means: "The molestation tactic was the thing that particularly got the headlines. We now know how effectively it can be used," said Robert Brake, one of the top officials of that organization. Who wouldn't want to save our children, after all, save them from things like the Houston mass murder horrors, save them from being pawed by nasty old men? That's what molestation means to most people, it's what the media encourages them to believe, it's a belief "Save Our Children" does nothing to discourage.

They've added a refinement. Recruitment. Because homosexuals can't reproduce, they must recruit.

Anita should know. Because recruitment is what she is all about. She wants our children. And, yes, they're our children too.
More on the charges and acquittal provoked by Men Loving Boys Loving Men see Queer Story video which features Jane Rule commenting. This from the Xtra! obituary by Marilyn Schuster
Rule, a lifelong opponent of censorship, wrote a bold column that condemned the police action and engaged the central issues of the offending article. In the column, called “Teaching Sexuality,” Rule acknowledged that the controversy raised difficult questions for her. “On the one hand I deplore repressive police action designed not only to stifle any discussion of… sexual activity across generations but to intimidate anyone even so involved with the paper as to be a subscriber,” she wrote. “On the other hand I understand the rage against sexual exploitation by men not only of children of both sexes but of women and other men, the pleasures of which The Body Politic can sometimes be accused of advertising.”

The real target of her essay was the hypocrisy of a society that is so fearful of sexual initiation that we deny that childhood sexuality exists. The taboo against sexual behaviour between children and adults, she argues, facilitates the exploitation of children. “Children are sexual,” she concluded, “and it is up to us to take responsibility for their real education. They have been exploited and betrayed long enough by our silence.” Her argument, bold in 2007, was unprecedented in 1978.
Complexities.

And so for day 2030
04.07.2012

Homophobic Impotence

Righteous indignation with a hook. (from Home Coming). Let's set the stage. Don L. Lee in the intro: "are no trees in Harlem or on the westside of Chicago. The only use/beauty she/we see in a tree, at this time in space, is the number of rifle butts it will produce."

Homophobic Trigger

She's come a long way: "You rescued us from the tyranny of racism, sexism, homophobia, class and economic poverty . . . You. Prodigious singer. Of life and actions. And words . . ." Sonia Sanchez introduction to Audre Lorde's A Burst of Light and Other Essays.

In those days we were caught between the Right (pinko commies) and the Left (bourgeois decadence). Why rehearse the wounds? Because in the historical record stand the judgements of critics such as Houston Baker Jr. who is called out by Kristi S. Anderson (Post-Poststructuralism: Gender, Race, Class and Literary Theory) "Rather than critiquing the obvious (hetero)sexism of the particular poems of Sanchez' which he chooses to highlight, Baker celebrates the "heterosexual bonding and collaborative journeying" he claims they represent (334)." Her calling out is in a dissertation not circulating widely. Houston Baker Jr. does shift as did Sanchez. Here is his blurb on Marlon Riggs's last film (Black Is… Black Ain't): "A remarkably courageous work of art...Riggs shows us a rare type of black heroism and it is profoundly moving." Which is now on my viewing list.

Still Sanchez's poem has a bite. Worth remembering the conditions that led to its utterance. We use the weapons at hand. And do well to remember Lorde: the master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house.

And so for day 2029
03.07.2012

Mapping, Proximity and Simultaneity

Dan Llyod. Radiant Cool: A Novel Theory of Consciousness

Caffeine intake; computer interaction. Provide epiphany.

I imagined an arrow swopping like a blackbird through the labyrinth. It says "YOU ARE HERE!" in a point that gets its meaning from the map. The labyrinth was the pattern of all patterns. Out to the edge of being. "You are here."
A few pages later, our hero moves on from here.
I nudged the mouse and set the universe into a slow spin. I had spent two years in graduate school sorting labels into piles: subject vs. object; mind vs. body; body vs. world; perception vs. action. As I looked across the nebula, none of these big distinctions seemed quite right. Each planet overlapped both sides of every 'vs.' All the pattern planets were ways of interacting with the world, and the whole map showed bodies animating perception while perception illuminated bodies. The world and I get along. We collaborate with hands, with eyes, with ears and lips. Our getting along is the world; it's me, too. I make the world that makes me.
Tucked into this book, written on an index card, was an injunction to "confront the anti-text bias." It poses a question.
What causes or sets up the instruction to "put similar patterns near each other in interstellar brain space"? Alternative. Computation — with rewrite rules & history of rewrites — i.e. not about holding pattern but about shifting pattern to and fro and then up & down. "I make the world that makes me" Contraries —> contradictions. There has to be oscillation of a digital nature then a leap to 4 via not here/not there and not[not here not there].
There is a little diagram to accompany these words. It presents P at t1 —> Pa at t2.

P & Pa, I take to mean sets of patterns. And it seems that the route between sets is accomplished through the trajectories of a semiotic square. Which at this late date we can gloss as me/not me and not[me not me]. Bringing the far apart closer? Wedging the close apart?

And so for day 2028
02.07.2012

Brrr!

Those that love the crisp chill in the air have a soul mate in Nigel Slater on winter:

The icy prickle across your face as you walk out into the freezing air. The piercing burn to your sinuses, like wasabi. Your eyes sparkle, your ears tingle. The rush of cold to your head is stimulating, vital, energising.

The arrival of the first snap of cold is invigorating, like jumping into an ice pool after the long sauna of summer. Winter feels like a renewal, at least it does to me. I long for that ice-bright light, skies of pale blue and soft grey light that is at once calm and gentle, fresh and crisp. Away from the stifling airlessness of summer, I once again have more energy. Winter has arrived.

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2017/oct/08/nigel-slater-extract-the-christmas-chronicles-cook-b
For a larger treatment of Winter as idea and cultural construct treat yourself to Adam Gopnick's Massey Lectures: Winter: Five Windows on the Season.

And so for day 2027
01.07.2012

Not Zen

Patrick Lima. The Art of Perennial Gardening: Creative Ways with Hardy Flowers.

There may be some folks of a more Zen cast who come to gardening with a built-in appreciation for leaves. I admire the austerity and clean lines of a Japanese meditation garden—but not in my backyard. Italian gardens, all green and gravel, fail to move me. A hearty amen to the writer who said, "I continue to feel that flowerless garden is a sad place." But when the bloom is off, so is a garden planned entirely around flowers. Balance is called for. Grow the flowers you admire, but understand that they will look lovelier in a setting of enduring foliage.
And similar principles may be applied to culinary practices — a bed of good rice to support the curry or the stir-fry.

And so for day 2026
30.06.2012

Step Out into the Abyss

The first chapter is suitably entitled "Approach" for this phenomenologically-informed discourse.

Every approach needs to presume upon its reception. And, so, in beginning we never fear that we shall be wholly misunderstood, we trust that our hesitancy, our stumbling talk, and our choice of words are not a search in the dark. To begin is confidently part of the work of building and sharing an understanding. It is ideally the institution of making sense together within a common life and a come world.
John O'Neill. Making Sense Together: An Introduction to Wild Sociology

By some form of association this calls to mind a marker placed in the ground at the parting of a cedar hedge into a view of the meadow with one word "abbyss" to indicate the leap not only of perception but of imagination (seen at the garden created by Douglas Chambers, Stonyground) which is an allusion to "Upon Appleton House" by Andrew Marvell
And now to the Abbyss I pass
Of that unfathomable Grass,
I let Chambers explain its origins himself (and you gentle reader to judge its aptness for juxtaposition with wild sociology):
That summer I was writing an article on Andrew Marvell's poem "Upon Appleton House": the first record of an Englishman's recognition that the landscape is also a garden. Marvell has provided several texts for my landscape but perhaps none is so apposite as the one that now sits at the edge of the west lawn, just as you walk into the meadow. "Abbyss", it says, in Marvell's spelling: a signal that you are about to pass across an abyss from the fixed architectural formalities of the garden into the true abbeys [sic] of nature.
There is a picture of the "Andrew Marvell quotation at the border of garden and landscape" in Stonyground: The making of a Canadian garden. Chambers's "true abbeys of nature" recalls as does Marvell's poem that the seat of Fairfax's estate, Appleton House, was once a nunnery. Common life and common world.

And so for day 2025
29.06.2012

All Shapes and Sizes

It was Hilary Clare (formerly C.M. Donald) who introduced me to fat liberation. I have in my library a copy of The Fat Woman Measures Up. I also have a gift — a laminated poster of Obélix sporting a gay pride button.

It contrasts with the meditative cover of The Fat Woman Measures Up. The cover photo of the book is by Marty Crowder and called "I Love Women and Rainbows".

And the last stanza from the last poem — the last word belongs to the poet:
I'm out of bounds,
out of breath,
out of sight,
outfront and
out of the closet
and what was it, actually,
that needed to be under control?
And so for day 2024
28.06.2012

Rapture and Ripeness

"Pistachio Music"

The moon has risen full, softly illuminating the inky sky above a pistachio orchard near Aleppo, in Syria.
[…]
The farmer stands at the edge of the orchard, waiting. He thinks tonight the bright green nuts may grow that final bit to burst the shell and skin. His head, bathed by moonlight, inclines in the dark, a tiny puff of air floats through the orchard, audible to itself. Then there is another and another as nut follows nut with its final spurt of growth bursting its shell, until all through the orchard the tiny hot breaths become music. Out under the moon more and more farmers come to hear pistachio music, the hauntingly joyful tune of the harvest.
Susan Herrmann Loomis. Nuts in the Kitchen.

And so for day 2023
27.06.2012

Canada Customs Protest

In the mid 1980s… Kingston Customs House

Canada Customs was seizing gay porn and writing that depicted anal intercourse. The issue was raised with some urgency as sexually explicit material was necessary for spreading the word about safe sex.

Yours truly created some erotica and invited the public to judge the case against censorship. The words are now available at our companion site, Stanzas.

https://flachance.blogspot.ca/2017/10/canada-customs-protest.html

What began as protest lives on as celebration.

And so for day 2022
26.06.2012

Territory and Traversal

Miriam Nichols Radical Affections: Essays on the Poetics of Outside

This critique of empiricism ultimately derives from Immanuel Kant. In the Kantian tradition, the things of perception are organized by a priori categories of understanding. These are categories that are innate to the human mind are not derived from experience. In Kant's account of the transcendental field, the categories are quantity (unity, plurality, totality); quality (reality, negation, limitation); relation (substance, cause, community); and modality (possibility, existence, necessity). Modern philosophies or psychologies that emphasize the mediating role of language or sexuality on perception are indebted to Kant, however much they revise Kant's arguments.
[How do modality (possibility, existence, necessity) relate to relation (substance, cause, community)?]

And so for day 2021
25.06.2012

Hotbed

The elaborate layering exploited the heat generated by the composting. Ingenious.

As the weather warmed up and we moved toward summer, the main crops were planted — corn, beans, melons, and peanuts. Sweet potato plants were ready for pulling from the hotbed — a structure made of 4 x 3 x 3 boards stationed in a corner of the garden. The bed was made by filling in a 6-inch layer of fresh stable horse manure that was then covered over with a 4-inch layer of dry oak leaves and few twigs of green pine needles. A 4-inch layer of old hay was added and that was topped with a 5-inch layer of clean, dry sand. The bed was then covered with a piece of old blanket or canvas and left to heat up for a few days. When the temperature in the hotbed reached 70˚, specially selected sweet potatoes were inserted into the sand, and the cover replaced. The bed was aired daily, every afternoon when the temperature was at its highest, and sprinkled lightly with warm water during incubation. When the plants reached a height of 5 inches, the bed was left uncovered so that the plants could toughen before setting them in the open ground.
Edna Lewis. The Taste of Country Cooking.

And so for day 2020
24.06.2012

Mind Leaps to Spryness

Richard Ronan. A Lamp of Small Sorrow: Four Fu Poems.

Lucian Stryk in the preface concludes
But what impresses me most about A Lamp of Small Sorrow is not so much its closeness to Taoism or Zen, though the closeness is palpable and altogether present in each section. Rather it is the feeling that the sequence had to be written, and that the poet, seemingly lost and overwhelmed in a harsh impoverished landscape, rises above it through meeting it directly, honestly and with great sensitivity. Richard Ronan in this lovely book tells the story of a spirit encountering its absolute context.
A note of abstraction that would seem amiss were it not for the exergue on the facing page.
of sorrow let oil be made
let rags of sorrow
be made into wicks
mark out the stars
     for each season
make of these
     a lamp of small sorrow
be brave, old friend, be brief
And glowing in this body of work are illustrations by Bill Rancitelli each as suggestive as this one capturing the feel of spring: eyes shielded from the light and scanning the skies and an armful of pussy willows, dog sniffing the damp earth — all bespeak of anticipation.

Word and image moving the mind to contemplation.

And so for day 2019
23.06.2012

The Spryness Leaps to Mind

Richard Ronan. Buddha's Kisses.

The poem "Gacela" opens with the figure of Lorca contemplating death and "the boy". By means of repeated words and short lines the poem builds image of a heart beat and a vast openness…

[…]
and
if this were
the singing
of the sea
harping
in his ear
constantly
and
[…]
A tiny word "and" and over its continuing repetition emerges a big surf sound in the ear.

As perfect accompaniment are drawings by Bill Rancitelli - also built up of small repeated elements animating the surface in a turn of surf.

And so for day 2018
22.06.2012

The Anything Everything List

Karin Cope

Passionate Collaborations: Learning to Live With Gertrude Stein

For when I began really to understand something about Gertrude Stein and her difficult words, I was not contemplating the example of Stein so much as acting it out. And in this acting, I began to ask why most of the crucial domains of our lives, those never simply discursive or critical, and always highly affective domains of passion appetite, self-esteem, sorrow, relatedness, pleasure, fabulation, love, movement, memory, touch, dreaming, fear, sensory delight — those domains from and in which what we do takes its weight and value — have, for the most part, fallen from the capacities of what we tend to consider properly critical address.
Note how fabulation is located between pleasure and love. And love is between fabulation and movement.

And so for day 2017
21.06.2012

Slivers of Silvering

He gives us this general statement and immediately situates it ("I am making a big connection here between writing, coming out, and community.")

Any art wants to take the place of your reflection in the mirror and call for your recognition. It makes you become it like a magic spell—with words, images, representations. That is why a new self, like a new aesthetic form, like any new approach to art, is something of a scandal. That's why readers experience shock and outrage, or relief and urgency. New form, new content demand a new way of being, a new way of seeing our own life, just as new vocabulary calls forth its meanings in your life. It is at this starting point that an art movement, or a political movement, has moral life. The appearance of a new self in fiction will be tested and taken as a demand as much as a description. A dishonest picture is a traitor, an enemy of the common good.
Robert Glück. "My Community" in Communal Nude: Collected Essays

What if one backed up to the fabrication of the mirror and not merely being entranced by the reflections it produces?

The silver coating is applied in multiple layers to provide a rich, lustrous appearance and adequate strength of deposit.
***
L'argenture est appliquée en couches multiples, qui se renforcent tout en donnant au lustre sa pleine richesse.

And so for day 2016
20.06.2012

Learning Absorbing

Towards the end of How I Read Gertrude Stein Lew Welch shares this realization:

Stein has everywhere stated that she "hears" speech rhythms, and I have only recently been able to do so. It is a very exciting thing to be able to do, and to be able to do it one has to be able to listen to "meanings" and "rhythms" as if they were two separate things.

It is almost impossible to do this if one simply sets out to learn it. I tried to just learn to do it, and found that I could not do both at once. I was left staring after a question was asked me, simply because I did not hear the question, I only heard the rhythm and the rising inflection that indicated to me that a question had been asked. So I stopped trying. But suddenly one day I found that I was doing it quite naturally because I had been reading so much of Stein.
Setting out. Taking it. Setting out.

And so for day 2015
19.06.2012

Scholarship and Cosmos

From nine first lines

The light foot hears you at the edge
Thickened light and liquid earth
Grail quests in times of plague
Instabilities of interminable
Fiery inclinations toward obscure
Indications of ripened peaches
The light at the end of unforeseen
Circulations of vanishing conversations
Protean racket intercessions were always
Nine Blue Moments for Robin. Michael Boughn

And here is a piece from the seventh of these homages to Robin Blaser
[…]
ashes. Peacock flesh from old
poems preens in reflections flashing
with clearly discerned intrusions
of glory eruptions eschewing
finely boned displays of self
determined perfections for the sheer
joy of raunchy instigations
and unheard of worlds written
asunder.
[…]
The line breaks and enjambement along with the diction and vocabulary evoke what is elsewhere in the suite of poems referred to as "scholarship and cosmos teeming / with the sense of a kiss that never / quite ends because its beginning / was impossible".

And so for day 2014
18.06.2012

Defiance

From a 1993 group show, these three posters by Richard Hydal provide a note of defiance to the show's title: I Love You But You're Dead.

As someone concerned with HIV we must not fall into the stereotypes and cliches of AIDS. As artists, we need to look at how we represent AIDS. We must ask who constructs the crisis and why such a construction is formed at such a time and at such a place. You must question and reject the various crisis mentalities constructing AIDS around or within you!

ART IS NOT ENOUGH! TAKE DIRECT ACTION TO END THE AIDS CRISIS!
The very notion of 'crisis' in the context of AIDS raises critical questions about the politics of representation. Apart from headlining the epidemic, making it horrific news on par with wars and stock market crashes, what has the term 'crisis' done to organize our perceptions of the syndrome and it[s] cultural impact? How has it constructed AIDS for us without having to think about it? We can all perceive that AIDS has been used to articulate profound social fears and anxieties, into a dense web of racism, patriotism and homophobia. It is this web, spun out of words sticky with blood lust, contempt, hatred and hysteria, which hangs across the entire media industry of the western world and within us all.

ART IS NOT ENOUGH! TAKE DIRECT ACTION TO END THE AIDS CRISIS!
As someone who sees the global development of the disease represented to me I ask why is no one telling me the end is not near! That what we have here is a chronic manageable disease!

TAKE DIRECT ACTION TO END THE AIDS CRISIS!

ART IS NOT ENOUGH!
And with these bleeding colours and words, we revisit that tombstone:

The mourning is carried over into the fight for the living.

And so for day 2013
17.06.2012

Nexus: between seed and fruit

"Take back the fruit: public space and community activism" is about the "Fallen Fruit" project in Los Angeles.

The description of the project leads to a question:

But who is the public? This question is at the core of Fallen Fruit. One way we like to frame this question is to suggest that the public is the nexus between those who have access to resources and those who do not.
Earlier:
The city has a policy of not planting fruit trees, though they will tend established fruit trees in public space (since their mandate is to keep the city as green as possible). The primary reason they cite, and not without justification, is the litter problem: fruit fall to the ground and end up feeding the city's unstoppable rodents. Thus the choice to plant a public fruit tree entails a commitment to its care and harvesting, so that the fruit will be an asset and not a liability to the neighborhood in which it grows.
Published in Food Alphabet City 12 edited by John Knechtel.

And so for day 2012
16.06.2012

Rest and Replay

The dust jacket is shiny blue. Inside the book has a red cover. It seemed all blue to me in memory. It appears that sea of blue had a moon reflected in waves — all a blur to me — I was concentrating on the title words and the background — the title actually bisects the image making it a challenge to see it whole.

We consolidate memories mostly when we are either at rest or asleep, because these are the quieter times when we are not processing any new external events. […] Spontaneous replaying tendencies at rest have a second set of implications. Both our ordinary leaps of creative intuition and extraordinary peak experiences usually occur during pauses. Each requires an extra, dynamic ingredient, not just he mere replaying of a problem long incubated but still unsolved. Novel closures often means that some new item or motive source of energy has closed the information gap. Instantly, large networks shift into brand-new configurations.
James H. Austin. Zen-Brain Reflections

And so for day 2011
15.06.2012

Making Room

Lisa Robertson. Thinking Space

There is a series of rooms. Each room frames a table, a book, and an opening to the outside—an aperture of some sort. At times they may be called studies or observatories or libraries but they are only rooms. Each has shaped a research.
This is the bold pared-down opening. Towards the end she quotes Carlyle and asks us to consider the "description of the study of the disappeared Herr Teufeldröckh".
It was a strange apartment; full of books and tattered papers and miscellaneous shreds of all conceivable substances 'united in a common element of dust.' Books lay on tables and below tables; here fluttered a sheet of manuscript, there a torn handkerchief, or a nightcap hastily thrown aside; ink bottles alternated with breadcrumbs, coffee-pots, tobacco-boxes. Periodical literature, and Blücher Boots.
Frame and framed. Flow and channel.

And so for day 2010
14.06.2012

Just My Cup of Tea: Typography

The Ceylon Tea Bureau, now known as the Sri Lanka Tea Board broadcasting its presence at Pure Ceylon Tea.

These elegant information leaflets are here represented by the second, third and fourth in the set. I like the layout — plenty of white space and pleasing to the eye. Also smart is the "anytime is tea time" logo with its stylized moon and sun.

And so for day 2009
13.06.2012

Repurposing Rites

There is a certain thrill in hollowing out a framework and replacing its content. The form serves another purpose. Take for instance the six rights regarding the administration of nursing which can be adopted and generalized to communication situations. (http://homes.chass.utoronto.ca/~lachance/pedagogy/sixrights.htm).

Right Drug
Correct message
Right Dose
Correct number of instances of the message(s)
Right Resident
Correct audience
Right Route
Correct mode
Right Time
Correct time
Right documentation
Correct metadata
Of Drugs, Messages and Time suggests "Exercises that enable students to conceive of themselves as creators and as custodians and as commentators flow from the observation and description of transactions. "

The method can be applied to other areas such as this take on Christian sacraments:
Mon, April 4, 2005

Kathleen,

Your recent post and comments on the Catholic Church got me thinking of sacraments. They seem to be signs of the incarnation which I relate in some history of ideas fashion to the socialist value placed on labour as making the world.

Norman Pittenger in the entry from the Encyclopedia Americana writes:
All Christians, except the Society of Friends, have accepted baptism and the Eucharist as sacraments "generally necessary to salvation," in the sense that their use is the normal way to admission to and participation in, the benefits of Christ [...] Catholic Christianity in both eastern and western forms, has said there are five other rites, of a sacramental nature, which may properly be called sacraments. These are confirmation, marriage, absolution or penance, holy orders or the rite of setting-apart for the ministry, and unction or the anointing of the sick or dying.
In what might be a heretical move for a believer, I have had fun mapping these 7 sacraments onto the work of the literary critic or the life of an academic [or an organic intellectual].
Baptism
a naming -- I am a reader
Confession
I have not read everything; I desire to read more; there are somethings I have read; there are somethings I do no wish to read
Communion
I belong to a body of readers; their confessions are similar in form to mine but they take different objects (they've seen flicks I haven't and would never want to view movies that I would gladly watch thrice over)
Confirmation
degrees -- marks of accreditation not to be confused with peer recognition
Holy Orders
not the same as taking vows to become a mendicant Franciscan or a contemplative Carmelite; taking up the activity of professing; an organic intellectual would be a teacher of some sort able to hear confession and dispense absolution and solemnize marriages
Marriage
the publication of "offspring" recombinant memes
Last rites
Archiving, donating and otherwise disposing of cultural artefacts; the bodies of the community readers don't seem to require this rite; the reader it appears does not need last rites... extreme unction, perhaps. Last rites would be like writing dust jacket blurbs that call out to readers ... reading will change your life. From this perspective all the sacraments seem to tend to an anointing of the sick and the dying.
In the Church of Literature, every act of reading is a self-anointment: the reader comes to occupy the position of both minister and ministered.

The sacraments so transposed seem to invoke the Benedictine rule, ora et labor, and recall the workings of a meeting where waiting upon the spirit to move through the friends gathered in silence.
Could it be that the paths opened up by Vatican II have allowed many ex-lapsed Catholics (who are never going back) to take the lessons of their catechism and live lives patterned on the sacraments? Would they not be people who have considered that the Anglican Book of Common Prayer states "The unworthiness of the minister hindereth not the sacraments" for these are "an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace" and not so much moved on as adapted the form to a new reading?
Living in ceremony; writing in ritual; reading in carnival.

McSweeney's 31 devoted to the refurbishing of old forms has a consuetudinary done by Shelley Jackson in which we read:
Reading takes place in the past—you have to raise the dead to recall where we started. The word of sits up, shaking off damp clods and cobwebs, the rises in turn, raising a skeletal arm; and structure points a juridical finger. Of course, all looking is looking into the past, as de Selby has shown, but the special kind of looking that is reading permits a look further back than ordinary looking, without mirrors or telescopes. Thus reading was not just an intimation of her further interest in the dead, but a form of First Contact, albeit unrecognized as such. What, after all, is a ghost? It is an inanimate object or substance—a parch of cold air, a light that comes and goes, a gelatinous blob growing in the basement—that is endowed with some of the properties of intelligent life, but not all. It bears the imprint of the thoughts and desires of someone long gone.

And what is a book?

Consuetudinary of the Word Church, or the Church of the Dead Letter
The editors of McSweeney's rightly preface this pastiche with the reminder that "Read today, consuetudinaries provide invaluable insight into the longstanding traditions of a lifestyle closed off from the outside world." Ivory tower?

And so for day 2008
12.06.2012

Backlist Item - Sold Out

Here is the description of the book from a scene with Marilyn Simonds in conversation with Hugh Barclay from Gutenberg's Fingerprint. They are examining all the books published by Thee Hellbox Press

Every book is different in size and shape and colour. A range of genres is represented: poetry, memoir, essays, fiction. It's had to grasp a binding thread through all these Hellbox books, in either form or content.

[…]

I pick the top book off the pile, turn to the first page, and read aloud: "The old chief who made us welcome in English and then offered prayer in the soft poetic tongue of the Ojibwa radiated a concern for the future and the past of the North American Indian."

Hugh leans across and flips forward to an illustration of a warrior that seems to dance across the page. "I wanted to show the dynamics of the powwow, a bit of the dance," he says. "So I carved three images and over-printed them in progressively fading colours."
The book in question was the first produced by Thee Hellbox Press in 1983. It is entitled A Letter to Teresa. It was produced in a limited edition of 72 numbered copies.

And so for day 2007
11.06.2012

Patterns, Rhythms,

First the injunction:

The structural theme must be conceived dynamically, as a pattern of forces, not an arrangement of static shapes.

Rudolf Arnheim, Entropy and Art: An Essay on Disorder and Order
From force to actant:
In 1968, Barthes pointed out that the Proustian narrator is not the person who has seen or felt, nor even the person who writes, but rather he who is going to write.

Jean Frémon "Delta" in Proustiennes translated by Brian Evenson. "Delta" is the final section of Proustiennes.
The opening conclusion, appeal to the reader:
[The concluding sentences to "Delta" and to the book recall the chapter/section on calculating à la Leibniz the ultimate finite number of books and then the necessity of repetition.]

In dreams, in books, in pieces of music, in paintings, in the beings what we love, as on hiking trails, there are sometimes, scattered, signs of gratitude such as compose the traveler's joy. They are fleeting, like sand, unstable, like sand can be, innumerable… They attest to the presence of something else, as do the shadows that reveal what's in the light, as do the efforts of the dead who haunt the living.
[Before this is] "The Traveler's Joy the English call the climbing viburnum because its presence on the hedges lining a road signals that you are approaching a hamlet."

For "hamlet" read "home". Always approaching. Hear hameau. Always approached. Approach.

And so for day 2006
10.06.2012

Led by the Nose

Cleverly designed ephemera.

There's a twinkle in the eyes from some small cutout triangles and of course there's the nose inviting the reader to open the card to get at the words in a script as if written by hand.

And the double play with the puns in both French and English (announcing a German book fair): "Nose out a good story", " Ve-nez donc voir".

"3.000 books and magazines from 500 publishing houses" — in case you read the back before opening… now ya knowz.

And so for day 2005
09.06.2012

Synth Perv

Top right corner, green ink, partial underline: probably indicates the topic: synesthesia.

Green highlight of a paper by Peng Yi with Latin phrase (Litterae Pervversae) in the title; right margin inscription: Peversity [sic] & Synesthesia.

Long line down the edge of the page in same green ink.

Green line terminates in bibliographic information inscribed in blue. [Listen to Shape and Warm is a Circle]

The whole page looks like a table top for moving pieces.

A Boolean search for "perversity" AND "synesthesia" nets:
An intensive trait starts working for itself, a hallucinatory perception, synesthesia, perverse mutation, or play of images shakes loose, challenging the hegemony of the signifier. In the case of the child, gestural, mimetic, ludic, and other semiotic systems regain their freedom and extricate themselves from the "tracing," that is, from the dominant competence of the teacher's language—a microscopic event upsets the local balance of power.
Gilles Deleuze and Félix Guattari, A Thousand Plateaus

Set as an epigraph to "Introduction: Cinema and the Affective-Performative" in Deleuze and the Cinemas of Performance: Powers of Affection: Powers of Affection by Elena del Rio
I now return to note how the individual events/papers are packaged in sessions:
  • Plenary Session
  • Cultural Relativism and Conflicts
  • Problematic Identies
  • Inscriptions of Identities
  • Chinese Women in the West
  • Intercultural Contacts
All under the rubric of the 14th ICLA Congress of a Tuesday morning in Edmonton in 1994.

That many of these are concurrent sessions makes me think of time. And enter Sarah Perry with After Temporality, a piece on chronesthesia at RibbonFarm:
Linear temporality (time as a sequential series of experiences) and chronesthesia (time as many simulations of past and future) are not conflicting models. Rather, they are deeply interlocking models that constantly construct each other. They are both illusions, though the way in which they are illusions is different. However, they are both highly functional, and the ways in which they are functional are complementary.
She uses the experience of shopping via a grocery store to illustrate the concepts at play and through this she underscores the opportunities for mental time travel: "I think it’s interesting how much mental time travel is involved in crushingly mundane activities."

And one more point: "Interestingly, there is evidence that remembering the past and imagining the future are not opposites, but expressions of a unified underlying capacity."

And so for day 2004
08.06.2012

The Body Remembers - Aided by a Postcard

I know I picked up the postcard in Toronto and the event was held in Vancouver. It is the image and its distinctive coloration that caught my attention as well as its suggestive title. (The evidence of a small pin hole indicates that it graced the wall near my desk for a number of years before finding its way into a file folder and from there to here — still fascinated by the quality of the design).

Neon bodies hooked together.

The recto gives more information: a dance piece choreographed by Joe Laughlin.

Which leads one to Joe Ink
The Body Remembers is a highly kinetic look at the mechanics of moving and the material life of the human body. Lyrical, humorous and emotionally compelling this dance performance leaves a most optimistic impression.
And one learns that the music was from Godspeed You! Black Emperor. O for a remount and tour!

And so for day 2003
07.06.2012

Rock Lullaby for a Distressed World

Performed by the Eagles, written by Glenn Frey and Don Henley, the song has its own Wikipedia entry. A distracted listener can easily read it as being about an absent lover. The occasion of its composition is about loss of a different kind and its tenderness beseeches us all to repair …

There's a hole in the world tonight
There's a cloud of fear and sorrow
There's a hole in the world tonight
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
A suitable anthem for our perforated times. Feel the hurt. Heal the pain.

And so for day 2002
06.06.2012

Day 2001 - Intellectual Exchange

On this day, a very short sentence.

His favourite apophthegm is "we sometimes connect by disentangling."
A smart quip for a bio.

And so for day 2001
05.06.2012

Day 2000 - Intellectual Exchange from the Almost Reader

On this day, a long post.

Encouraged by my friend Fadi Abou-Rihan I lightly edited a series of emails with a view of making them available to a wider audience. Here then are the fruits of that effort

September 15, 2003

Dear Linda,

What a delightful postmodern question! Indeed, where am I? Nearly a decade past defending the thesis.

Curious as to what might have prompted the interpellation :)

Very much a para-academic. I contribute from time to time to Humanist, the discussion list moderated by Willard McCarty and devoted to Humanities Computing as well as to the Text Encoding Initiative discussion list.

I've participated (writing a "paper" and facilitating a discussion) in a number of online conferences about online teaching (an area of expertise that grew out of the work I did for the School of Continuing Studies.)

Lately, inspired by a question posed to Thomas Pavel I've rambled through theory with a piece about Lubomír Doložel's presentation of possible worlds and fiction http://www.chass.utoronto.ca/~lachance/dolezel.htm

In short, I manage to write and find a bit of an audience.

Still a bit surprised that you wrote. And not sure if a mention of house, garden and work in the civil service would be more of an answer.

F

September 18, 2003

Dear Linda,

I'm currently working in the Policy Branch at the Ministry of the Attorney General. The position is scheduled to be surplussed so I'm conducting the ever-familiar job search. Likely to land somewhere within the Ontario Public Service.

I found myself musing over the last couple of days that it would be an interesting project to trace "students" and not just "grads". I can think of a few ABDs that contributed significantly to the student life of Comp Lit while I was there. Perhaps it is an inclusion possible for consideration in prospective tracking/tracing projects. It is a bit less of a challenge for educational institutions to begin thinking about themselves not just as degree/diploma granting bodies but also as facilitators. The academic is but one constellation in a galaxy of intellectual activities.

Others, such as Paul Goodman, have articulated a similar point. And still others are actively risking the extra-mural contact in their seminars and exploiting the fishbowl opportunities offered by new media technologies.

See for example this experiment from Pomona College: http://www.plannedobsolescence.net/po/archive/000145.php#000145 [digital decay – url now defunct; reviewing the archive at Planned Obsolescence leads us to believe that the referenced piece is http://www.plannedobsolescence.net/blogging-and-the-classroom/ is about incorporating blogging into a class tentatively titled “The Literary Machine”]

All praise to any institution that can tap into the goodwill of its ABDs. I know what tensions reside in that statement. But it’s a nice pivot from which to contemplate the place and pace of convocation and commencement, the role of gathering and scattering of the members of the corporation.

Thanks for your reply which has given me the chance to reflect upon that period where the pressure was on to finish in four years what a dozen would make better and that time where a few non-cynical but skeptical wags would venture to say "publish _and_ perish" and quickly add "but never cease writing". It is perhaps the most valuable experience that the interchange at Comp Lit in the early 90s gave me -- a deep and abiding appreciation for the time to think and that making time to think is akin to disciplined writing and all manner of record keeping. It's kept me in good stead.

Thanks for shaping that place and time which gave me so much.

F

September 18, 2006

Dear Linda,

My apologies if this subject line [Michael Lynch] came as a blow from the past. I did want it to stand out and catch your attention. The acknowledgements to Sarah Brophy's _Witnessing AIDS_ mentioned you and it led me to ponder.

I have my own selfish reasons for inquiring if you ever wrote an encomium for Michael Lynch and if so might I read it or some part of it? I am struggling with disclosing my own recent change in HIV status with some of my professional colleagues and friends in the civil service. I was wondering how two very articulate and sensitive individuals lived through that time in the early 90s. Not that I am looking for a model. I just want to a decade on to offer you a reader or listener because I vividly remember you walking away from the memorial service held in the old Euclid theatre wrapped in that inward looking look. Then was not the time to ask. Perhaps neither is now.

An interpellation ventured, is one less regret.

Thanks for already I have begun the telling in that most metadiscursive fashion with a story built on a narration that expresses the willingness to listen to a story -- and what more magical addressee for that than yourself.

I hope you are well and la rentrée is the delight it should be -- great students and revitalized colleagues.

F

October 22, 2006

Dear Linda,

Thank you for your message about Michael Lynch. Your pointing me to his writing (I recall the various pieces he wrote for The Body Politic and of course the one for _Profession_, the MLA publication) helped me recall a conversation. Michael, in those days of frantic grief and anger, where every step singular and collective was a struggle, gave to me in retrospect his blessing to stay in graduate school and continue with my research and studies. He quite gently but firmly evoked the unfinished task of organizing.

He said to me that it was important to graduate, there would always be time later to "activate". I remember fondly the Latinate form of the verb meaning not only to be an activist but also to be something like a Gramscian organic intellectual. My writing to you, my reading your response, helped me recall that conversation of a warm fall day somewhere along King’s College Road before the oaks were replanted --

Michael with that characteristic squint of concentration to make a point then relaxing into an invitation to contemplate the import of what he had said.

In the days after receiving your reply, I found myself thinking about issues of disclosure. So much of the activism of gay liberation and the organizing in response to the AIDS crisis was wrapped up in the tactics of silence breaking, telling stories, bringing to light, speaking out. The coming out questions are still there: who do you tell, how, why? But now in the 21st century, oddly and ironically, the very right to privacy can be enjoyed. I mean I am able to enjoy the work of education and advocacy. The supports are well in place and institutionalized. Such is the case, in the space of 20 years.

Today I was reading one of those marvelous essay-stories by Barry Lopez. The narrator-character references St. Ignatius to the effect that what one does on learning the end of the world is near is not to run to the confessional but to continue with one's activity, with what one is engaged in doing. I smiled.

A sero-conversion in 2006 is far from the end of the world. That said, I’m really only at the threshold of this set of personal experiences. Will the drugs work for me? Will I be able to manage the side effects?

Yesterday, we completed the fall planting of bulbs. This year we also put in a burning bush at the base of the smoke tree -- an elaborate horticultural joke. None of this is intended to have metaphoric import. It does and it doesn't. Gardening is so entwined with our quotidian since we purchased the property back in 2000, it is what we are engaged in doing.

And I write. It is what I am engaged in doing. Oblique interventions on discussion lists. Cross-pollinating comments on academic blogs. And my own short pieces published to the web. Continuing to be interstitial.

I had thought about keeping a journal. But there is other stuff to complete. And my writing is carried on in the space of an avocation -- after a day's work. Being sero-positive just might be the spur for me to take the rhetoric of multimedia that I have planned and sketched and, well, activate it.

Thank you thank you for bringing back to me the wonder of a time and place so important to who I am now and where I might yet be taken.

F

November 30, 2006

Dear Linda,

The moon waxes and wanes and almost a month has passed since my last not-a-stranger message.

During this particular lunar cycle, I spotted some of the promotional activity for your recent book on adaptation. And I noted that Robert McKee author of _Story_, was in town giving a two-day seminar on how to write for page, stage and screen. I didn't attend. It would have been fun to observe someone deliver a spiel when he is quoted as saying "that writing only for the Canadian audience is too limiting" in the same interview that he says he wasn't coming to teach Canadians how to make Hollywood films.

Your theme of the migration of stories and their retelling and resetting was on my mind when I read Jim Bartley's first novel, _Drina Bridge_. There is a character who "adapts" stories in the sense of producing alternate versions. There is in this novel a character engaged in writing a memoir about wartime experiences. A story will be related and a second and third version immediately succeeded in the narration.

The reader is situated as reading a typescript along with the narrator. The storyteller/writer is a 60-year old refugee raised in Bosnia and Serbia and through most of the novel an inmate in a Sarajevo hospital. The mise en scène results in an odd feeling of being at a remove from the situation of initial enunciation and yet occupying the specular position of the interpellated. And so when three distinct versions of a similar tale succeed each other there is more to the strategy than avoidance of traumatic memories. There is a point about the interchangeable roles in the atrocities. Yet the technique does not result in a simple set of aloof remarks about perpetuation and the repetition of history. It touches the line between adaptation and adoption. There is a passage that seems to both comment on the technique and set up the reader for revelations:
Chance divides the actual from the true. The actual might avoid the true -- for a time. But truth lurks eternal. It's always there, hovering closer to here.
And though it is not explicitly stated in the novel, it becomes evident that stories are bridges. Not only between the true of the there and the actual of the here.
***
What follows below is the first piece of sustained writing I've done, apart from the odd post to a discussion list or comment to a blog, since I learnt of my sero-conversion. It's influenced by our exchange and by my conversations with a colleague who is directing a student's research project on AIDS and grieving. I think I will now be able to integrate that bit about the actual and the true before uploading the piece to the WWW. Thank you for being an "interlunar" interlocutor. One of the reasons it has been difficult to renew my engagement with writing projects has been a shift in intended audience. When one is too much in touch with one's mortality the temptation is to slip into a mode of addressing posterity. I forgot that my best writing always has had contemporaries in mind. And so being at a keyboard typing and thinking is a much as part of staying healthy as compliance with anti-viral therapy which will begin in the second week of December for me when the results of a bunch of tests are back and the specialist has determined the best combination of drugs. In about a month my theme just might be "side-effects". Enough. I grow prolix. And I have to figure out how to integrate the actual-true theme in the following.
***
Jim Bartley's novel _Drina Bridge_ is set in the former Yugoslavia during the Bosnian-Serb war. Its narrator is a gay man who has lost a lover. There is an intriguing passage on the nature of grief. The passage in question is conveyed in the voice not of the narrator and certainly not that of the author. This particular view on grief comes from a character who is a writer and also male (but not "gay"):
Grief and language do not intersect. What we can express is sadness or distress or some form of the tragic, but those who have known grief will not find it on a page.
I found myself explicating the passage in a letter to a friend. I took a very Kantian approach to indicate that there is always a hiatus between the expression and the thing expressed. If grief cannot be expressed then neither can sadness nor distress nor even joy. Expressivity cannot be tied to intensity. For the slight stirrings of some emotion by being very minuscule challenges the adequacy of expression. However the non-coincidence of the expression and the expressed is not a failure. For such a _décalage_ opens the intersubjective space in which the listener or the reader can imaginatively project their experience. It is a space through which or into which experience moves. Of course it is not found on the page. The page is a portal.

And yet the page is a surface.

I also in an almost Stein-like moment reflected upon the difference between those who have known it and those that are knowing it. Those who are knowing it will find it anywhere if not everywhere. The past perfect tense that ascribes a pastness to the grief, locks it into a condition of having been known, offers an escape for the careful reader from the "we", the defeatist "we" that would reify the trauma and make it unreachable. It is a tactic that blocks lucid access to the power of the past.

It is quite telling that the next paragraph in the novel, a continuation of the passage quoted above invokes a salvation motif:
I have delayed redemption too long. Let there be a glimmer. There remains hope of an escape, of a new life.
In 1945 was born [...]
The reader forgives the delusions of the character, indeed by this point in the novel, the reader is well acquainted with the feints that help the discourse unroll and the stories come forth. There is no redemption. No escape. No new life. There are stories. Our narrator is an unbeliever and it is through the narrator that the somewhat backward confession of faith professed through the inadequacies of language comes to the reader. The story in its being told offers connections -- bridges -- and that is where hope lies. The redemption is in the delay.

The cost of mourning is not in the loss of stories about the dead. The cost of mourning is about the risk of connecting with the living. There is no guarantee that each interpellation will find acknowledgement.

There is a cruising aspect to the expression of grief. So many connections not made. And some very intense grief encounters that remain anonymous.

In some ways it is not about the process of mourning it is about the question of the place of intensity in one's living. And intensity well-managed requires an exquisite sensitivity to audience.

On the page. Around the page. Off the page.
***
F

December 30, 2006

Dear Linda,

I am grateful for your last message and in particular for the mention of my particular situation of enunciation for it got me to thinking of situations of enunciation in general.

Biography counts when it does. Its counting depends on more than knowing the facts. And if the term "situation of enunciation" can be read as a synecdoche for biography, it might explain, at least it explains for me, much of the fear (and sometimes loathing) that has greeted the discourse about the death of the author.

I arrive at this tenuous possibility by way of Barthes. Your mention of situation of enunciation put me in mind of his remarks about "fading". Even when reading an English translation there comes to me the French accent dwelling on the _ing_ sound, a sound of course foreign yet neighbouring. I think "fading" is at the heart of what the character in _Drina Bridge_ was expressing and offering up to resistance. I have been meaning to write something up under the working title _Incommensurabilities: of expression and experience_.

I think the impulse to cherish biography, as well as the exasperation with the inadequacies of being true to the intensities that traverse one's life, are related to the urge for continuous adaptation. Anyway by a circuitous route I plan to link some passages from Barthes to a meditation on a picture in Sausure's Cours.

My intent is to describe that at the very heart of the relation between matter and language is a human need to inscribe, nay incise, over and over again ... minutely and at every level to make the story stick.

Conversely we also revel in the unstickiness of stories. It is easier in this short space to convey the thought with an image: I will make marks in the sand knowing and expecting the wave and the wind to do their work.

I have benefited from this thinking about the paradoxical structural durability of stories and the ephemeral touches of narration. I've been tackling scenarios of disclosure. Not rehearsing. Just mulling.

Since beginning antiviral therapy, I've extended the repertoire of conversational gambits. I'm not limited to aping the Alcoholics Anonymous model and its for me bizarre ontological commitment (Hi I'm so-and-so and I'm [an example of]). It is far nicer to approach the disclosure through the punctual (I have tested positive; I have begun antiviral therapy) it leaves so much more room for a conversation and for absorbing the import of maintaining a distance -- not becoming overly identified with the disease and yet not slipping into easy denial.

One step to realizing this was timing the beginning of therapy with the resumption of the discipline of daily writing. Blogging offered just the right place to start. Almost as if it is the spiritual exercise of the 21st century, blogging is marked by a commitment to regular recording and reflection. But not a first person confessional! I maintain what amounts to an open commonplace book with glosses. No comments from readers (I don't want at the present to deal with the reactions of others). And nicely off to the side in a listing where one usually finds favourite movies or books is a wee bit of pharmaceutical discourse: the drugs I take on a daily basis. Those that know will know and those that are curious can find out. And as I write out this little ekphrasis of the layout, I have come to realize that I have a daily visual reminder of the importance of compliance with the regimen but more importantly a visual affirmation of a contract with myself to maintain perspective.

I recall some time ago at one point you had taken up the piano later in life. I don't know if you are still at it or interested in listening to a new piece you might wish to add to your repertoire. Nonetheless I will suggest the final piece in Clint Mansell's score to Darren Arnofsky's film _The Fountain_. There is a serenity to the composition that returns the listener to the mindfulness of practice. I have no idea what it would be like to play.

F

January 19, 2007

Dear Linda,

The ides have passed and my interlunar phasings are creeping more and more to month's end. Must be the influence of accounting in the air. Various modes of storytelling have been preoccupying me a wee bit lately. A few aphorisms crop up.

**
-- On the "split addressee" :
The practice of irony is like running with knives.
Non signal splitting safely involves a lot of care.

-- On "going meta" as per Jerome Bruner :
Involution is a necessary step on the way from self-referentiality to self-reflexivity and evolution.

-- From a letter to a friend in part about a piece by Adam Mars-Jones on the depiction of the disabled in film ("Cinematically Challenged" in _Blind Bitter Happiness_) i.e. me quoting myself :
"the gap between representation and reality -- the place where it is possible to imagine the possible. "
**

This is all connected in some fashion to the discussion we have been having about the incommensurability theme in the discourses on experience's relation to expression.

Hope all is well with you and that the students are receptive.

F

March 22, 2007

Dear Linda,

February passed by without my sending news. Not without thinking what I might say to you, faithful interlocutor. I've begun the task of sorting through papers and came across a clipping of a review by Michael Lynch and so noted it in the open commonplace book (blog) I keep. I quoted the salient part and gave the entry the rubric "Grappling" http://berneval.blogspot.ca/2007/03/grappling.html
In the middle, straddling two columns of text, the editors chose one key attention grabbing sentence from a review by Michael Lynch of the film Beautiful Dreamers. Now further in time from 17.04.90 its Globe and Mail appearance is a tribute to the author.
Audiences want to grapple with history, not be lulled by it.
"Putting Whitman back in the closet" is the title of the piece.
I've not had the energy for longer stints of writing. As I approach day 100 of religiously popping the antiviral pills there is some improvement in the CD4 count and still a way to go.

Grappling.

It was a treasure find to come across that clipping and a pleasure to report it to you.

I hope the end of term goes smoothly.

F

April 30, 2007

Dear Linda,

Very last day of the month: time to sneak in under the wire a report some disjecta and let you know that I have continued to meditate on the theme of experience and expression.

First, the hyacinth is blooming and the smell of the six or so plants in the garden is heady. It is a temporary phenomenon all the richer because of its transience.

Second, I found myself considering what I am inclined to call the forgetting of narration. I have observed in some examples of critical discourse that there is a tendency to speak in terms of many narrations and a single narrative. If a phenomenological perspective is introduced then narrative is not seen as a single and unique object of thought (or experience) but as the product of agreement between subjects. The diagram of a diegesis is no less a narration than the many words or images that also give access to similar constructions. It is by agreement that we produce the same story, an agreement renegotiated at every telling.

The same story is always a new agreement. Recall children wanting to hear a favourite story with all the noises and gestures that produce the sense of the familiar. It is a language trap to insist that what returns is the same. It is familiar.

No two cups of tea taste the same yet they are recognized as cups of tea and even tea of the same flavour (but with a wee difference in the intensity due to slight shifts in steeping time).

I have been propelled to this nominalist realization of the instability of any given entity called a "narrative" by recalling a question that Professor Fitch asked at my defense so very many years ago. His question was about Ingarden's notion of concretization. My answer then makes more sense now: a rereading produces a different concretization. Of course some readers would set concretization on the side of narration and a narrative on the side of some unchanging structure. But the structure itself is malleable; its stability, a function of our agreements.

In Saussure's Cours there is an illustration (referenced by Barthes in Elements of Semiology) where there are two flows and samplings from each. Below is a typographic transcription

===== < ============== > =====

.......... < …………………….. > ………….

The famous arbitrariness of the sign is a relation between samplings. The signified is as much an incision into a flow of matter (experience) as is the signifier. All this seems rather obvious to anyone that understands the semantic field to be dynamic. If the pair narration/narrative is isomorphic with the pair signifier/signified, the slippage that is perceived in experience/experience is built into how humans process the relations between language and reality.

And language is a part of reality.

Third of the disjecta, all these musings on the intersubjective nature of the stability of narrative as object of thought or experience came after a lecture by Martin Lefebvre to the Toronto Semiotic Circle where he quoted Peirce to the effect that "every fine argument is a poem or a symphony" and outlined a scheme where habit taking mediates between chance/origin and necessity/telos. This is getting long and convoluted. The following is very sketchy.

involution is not equivalent to self-reflexivity

involution produces a copy of the world in a given state that becomes the base state to compare subsequent states (This is similar to how a computer’s central processing unit keeps a copy in active memory to work upon -- the model can be applied to the act of reading. In my thesis way back when I briefly touched upon the notion of involution in a quick look at the similarities between the semiotic square and the mathematical object called a Klein group. This bit on involution arises from a note in my thesis in the chapter positing the semiotic square as a machine… it of course needs elaboration)

Someone somewhere may have already introduced the notion of states into possible world semantics. This might just give access to a poetics of impossible worlds. Impossible worlds are imaginable as games (considered as moves between states). A focus that might interest those searching to bridge the ludology versus narratology in gaming studies.

Of course I'm left with questions to ponder: How does, if it does, the pair world-state map onto the pair narrative-narration?

And so I take time to breathe and smell the fleeting hyacinth.

F

June 2, 2009

Dear Linda,

I feel betrayed by the clever Stein-inspired subject line [Beginning Again, Again] that I used for my last message (apologies once more for the blank message). I am doomed to begin again!

I also apologize for the hiatus of over a year. And I thank you for the invitation to resume writing to you -- I particularly liked how you managed to mime keyboard activity to remind me not to be a stranger.

It has been an odd year. A slump both physiological and psychological. After some months of monitoring and observing, medications have been modified thus giving me more energy. I also have been forced to pay attention to diet and exercise. The medications affected appetite which affected food intake. And I lead a fairly sedentary existence. So some weight gain contributed to the physiological sluggishness.

The lack of stamina resulted in a, for me, bewildering retreat from writing. I wasn't depressed -- I could function well enough at work. I wasn't dejected -- I still derived pleasure from reading and watching films. I had become passive. I just wasn't able/willing to devote evening time to writing. It wasn't as if I didn't begin composing in my head. I kept putting off the act of writing. Very odd since writing in a sense nourishes me. Ironic: a year of bad food choices and little writing.

What I didn't abandon was reading. I did give up half way through the larger volumes I had been reading such as Edmund White's biography of Genet or Tony Peake's bio of Derek Jarman. However poetry and short prose and would you believe it "food writing" were genres that I frequented.

I made my way through the complete poetry of Gwendolyn MacEwen. She has a wonderful line in a poem called "The Return" , a line that would make a nice inscription around a mirror: "To perceive you is an act of faith". I am able to recall this mainly because the notion was recorded as a blog entry. A short entry. One of the last before a long patch of no entries.

Of course that mirror trick would have been impossible were it not for an encounter with the _Narcissistic Narrative_ a long while ago.

Professor Doložel asked me a vexing question when I saw him at the festivities in your honour. He asked if I missed the university. I hesitated and gave my stock reply about missing the teaching but not being willing to spend years in the wilderness of sessional appointments. He then mentioned a former student of his who has been caught in sessional work for almost a decade. Relief mingles with regret. I like the discursive move to a story about managing one's career path, an exercising of choice. It is a reassuring tale. However it deflects from a sense of rejection (not to have been chosen to be part of the academy). The rejection is the luck of the draw. Up until recently it has been stored as a piece of disavowal. It is amazing to how much pain we can immure ourselves.

The failure to land a tenure track position and the move to another world resulted in the loss of an audience. Not just any audience. A learned audience. In my case the loss was not total. I managed to participate on line and for a while attend conferences. Always though as an outsider.

Outside looking in is not an unusual position and not without its special attributes.

I came to graduate school with a strong sense of the distinction between an intellectual and an academic. I was also heavily influenced as a teenager by having read (twice) Hesse's _The Glass Bead Game_. I was a far less resistive reader then and identified with the character of Knecht who serves the academy and then moves beyond the institutional walls. His life ends with a beautiful and stoic suicide. As a teenager that ending was far off. And the promise of company of other game players, an inspiration. Still would it be possible to rewrite the novel without its suicide ending?

Funny to think it possible to read one's intellectual itinerary as a rewrite of a novel read in one's youth.

I don't plan on returning to Hesse in the near future. I recently have begun reading novels by gay men who first published in the 1980s and have continued to write in the aftermath of the AIDS epidemic. Earlier on there is something very arch in most of them. James and Proust are the evident models.

Allow me to conclude with this passage from Andrew Holleran's 1983 novel _Nights in Aruba_. It contrasts nicely with Hesse. From its concluding pages ... our rather listless hero is looking for conclusion if not closure.

I no longer believed when I awoke in the morning that I could, by lying still in my dark room, balance past, present, and future, or figure everything out. I was certain that even death would provide no illumination -- that we died ignorant, confused, like novelists who cannot bring an aesthetic shape to their material.
[…]
As I sat there in my silent room I saw these memories would be with me forever, that wherever they were, I was: some part of me. But the life I must begin was my own -- a separate person's.
This was difficult. For I realized that so much memory and desire swirl about in the hearts of men on this planet that, just as we can look at Neptune and say it is covered with liquid nitrogen, or Venus and see a mantle of hydrochloric acid, so it seemed to me that were one to look at Earth from afar one would say it is covered completely in Ignorance.
And the reader is thus left to ponder. And perhaps conclude that a closer view, a view perhaps more down to earth, is possible and through which one appreciates that allegorical figure of Ignorance as the product of a novelist certainly not confused nor ignorant. Our author is in no need of illumination to provide the ending a novel. He knows how to insert a self-destructing allegory. The author is also lucky to find receptive readers.

And now for a bit of bragging that I can share with you because so much of my reading habits were honed in Comp Lit. Recently in a reply to a posting as part of a public discussion about computing and the humanities, Willard McCarty replied to one of my postings by calling me out by name:

"Francois has a gift for almost reading a text, that is, for remaining aware of the ways in which surface-features of a text condition the reading while it is happening. Most of us attend _from_ the many voices and signs and signals to the argument unfolding as we go. He simultaneously attends _to_ them."

It is amazing how I lap up such praise, feed the ego and re-engage with writing and sharing. It's a kind of cool designation to be an "almost reader". :)

Thank you once again for your kind indulgence. It's appreciated.

F
Thank you for your kind indulgence. Again.

And so for day 2000
04.06.2012